carcrashes.

was a tinkerbell/ ballerina turned into angel complete with halo and a dangling stolen snowflake to boot this christmas.
pictures up in next life as usual.

phuture-d again
absolute highness, am learning to control and thus was only at the verge of getting drunk
a skill we all ought to master!
feels good but..
was curtailed by a very pukey c
raced home with our stinky hair, skinnys and starving stomachs.

\\ the unexpected happens.
though i really cant make it out..still..

-


i thank God for elder sisters and their handy resume samples.

-


and then i remember i'll always never be like them
because girls like me take the last place.

FINALLY.

i'm so glad to be rid of it
the perpetual melancholy haunting me
away away
i'll never want to put myself in such a position ever.
thank you,
distant memory.
R.I.P.

another lesson learnt..
another story made up.

anyway my ears finally healed!
yayy
i imagined dark days of boring ears without the hint of glow from little studs,
(i know my hair covers them but i can tell the difference alright!! it's like wearing perfume; people can't really smell you but you know it all the same. it's a sort of unexplainable secret happiness.)
replaced by little men instead -think steph's horror story
and chatised myself for taking my earholes for granted
and tadah! mom to the rescue, calmly placing a tube of cream in my exasperated hands.




YY it's not much if anything.



vivian and i visited coach and katespade
omgness gorgeous stuffs
we lovelove
us brokebroke people.
we need our payyyyy

more pre christmas shopping w The Jiang Tzu ltrs.
(cbean! she always reminds me of kids pasta and salad. like wting reminds me of grntea frappe summer strawberry love and mandarin hotel)
haven't met up with many people in a longggg time..
:ccc


it's a doggy dayy


spot the differences (squatting position) /similarities (arm position)
+++p.s check out the foreground in the first shot. i feel like i was in one of those pictures for Chinese Oral Examinations in pri sch.
+++++p.p.s check out jiang's shirt. it looks like it has a life of its own dancing lines.

steph we ought to walk (carry, i mean) Megan again during our trips to petrol kiosk for our fave 6 pack Macademia Nut! lose some grams taking turns to carry her only to gain more after slumping on the couch after downing it all.


i never cease to amaze myself at how easy it is
when it comes to smiling at strangers..

maybe cos the whole point is they are strangers
putting up an act is easy peasy



@postprom
yea i realise you can't see half my face.

oh woe
i hate rainy days!!!!!


edit;; whaaaat. rachel bilson and adam brody broke up! i knew it. cute couples don't work out.

it seems.

7 months is a long time.



christmas shopping tmrw!
btw;; thanks for pres people, Y

more Y;;

(p.s check out how our legs jut out the same way!?!)

for now

+ earhole infection is killing me.
++ love steph's little bed that contains not so little us everytime, little speakers humming as we nap many a time, little cakes and food that make me not so little, little pup Megan that we absolutely love.
Ikea @Tampines was zz; too many grouchy ah mas and wailing kids and casualties. too many too manys.
i wanted chicken wings on top of meatballs and salmon but my fat face was screaming stopppp.
+++ darrenn eng doesn't know what's a cardi ._.

text messaging on the bus.

if i owned a kitten
i'd name it snuffles and call it my xiao sheng ming
and right now i'd be scratching it between its ears



(:

okay more birthday piccas to be up in my next next life.
18th was spent catching up with Sweet Steph (haha) then being blindfolded and deceived by pals so good at White Lies. soon after found myself feeding What Lies Beneath swans, revenging on Dua Boss, favouring asthamtic Mr. Snuffles, UNsexy shots during Twister.. then dark gray clouds hovered above my head and threatened to pour so in my dark mood i became a brat at the Village and i apologise my dears.

Y

sleepover at Nicole Love was.. healthy. sober sleepover was a first and we did 80 situps (albeit much screaming and cheering) and stretched like mad (insert the pulling and more screaming) but i swear her bedroom holds much sopoforic (sp) quality.. my eyelids grow so heavy everytime. or maybe it's the exercising this time.

Phuture and Breakfast @ Tiffany's next weds pls.
(p.s you said it's all a choice so i thought about it
and decided i couldn't choose..)

work tmrw till 11
kudos to late night shopping
d'oh, my feet, my poor feet.

i need shoppingg supper and stories

why, does it even matter anyways.

blueberry muffin and GREENTEA frappe please.

alright since people have been asking (and i don't exactly fancy soft toys),
bodyshop passion fruit/ strawberry body butter
darkred nail polish
mac (into the)black waterproof eyeliner
keratase hair serum (just lost mine GRRRRR)
lancome gentle eye
or jst whatev random cutesy cherubic stuff; notebooks rings blah (soft toys aren't exactly cute though)
or just a happy day
would be nice..
very price friendly, i mean, i don't suppose
dkny/ ck watch (not the box, dinah, thanks)
warehouse kimono print tube/ dress
blue uber faded/ grey skinnys (size 00/ 4)
coach wallet
katespade/ furla bag
lacoste paleblue polo (the soft one please)
would make it to the list, would they.
alright i think i'm pretty smart and secretly sly hehe!
okay cheap thrill,
very roll eyes.
&i realised prolly only c knows what exactly i'm talking about.

i knew it's a bad december.
like always..
forget december, it won't be better.

work's been better (hope i'm not jinxing it right this second)
the satisfaction of helping the smiling and grateful clueless father upon finding The Sparkly Purple Christmas Dress or the dazed mom unable to make up her mind which flower print skirt or snowflaked jeans to get, the fluster of finding the right size in the store so that they can return with bulging bags and not empty handed, the amusement over the wife tickled at hubby's inability to colour coordinate.
(:
(plus thanks, all who visited! appreciate the moments of respite..)

anyways post prom was like crap.
first stoned for a million lightyears before getting in
then who bursts into tears when she's high, really.
was as bad as last week's momo.
i need some redemption next weds pls!

afternoon after was good tho!
random painting nails/ oc/ prata/ towning then The Last Kiss.

random, but
i really feel like checking out the new Ikea store @Tampines!
amazing how i have a free shuttle from my house since forever
talk about procrastination..

piccas up when lazy people send me in my next life.

telescope eyes

my comp is in as good a mood as i am!
bought many happy things.. all i need is a trip to borders!
i swear cutting hair is therapeutic.. i feel so lightheaded i feel as though i could fly..



this is slow, but still Y nonetheless!

p.s WORK SUCKS. hate the effed up lianlians.

PISSED OFF IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT, MOM.

Y

it seems like yesterday
that my world fell from the sky

it seems like yesterday
i didn't know how hard i could cry

i feels like tomorrow
i may not get by.

-

DaDinah ; sorryyyyy ._.

Rouge madness with em both &belle
d'oh.

freda&i : we Y school.

nothing in this world

is reciprocated,
like how i showered undying attention for Math but it/he/she failed me
but of course it's not just Math here that i love but
also them, whom i shall not reciprocated
and of course them whom i was not.

why i go to school partI



they won't see us waving from such great heights
come down now, they'll say.
but everything looks perfect from far away
come down now, but we'll stay.

/not gonna ask any promises from you anymore.

HAPPY 18TH TINGSIE !

you know i love you to bits and pieces

and shreds and strips

then i'll glue you back whole again (:

another year of not being there..(pipizz)

have a jolly good and safe one

(careful with the lexus and zebra crossings)
Y you alwayssss.

she is a cheerleader
i'm sitting at the stands

last day at school was :D :D :D :D
piccas ll be up when nette does her job AHEM HOPEFULLY BY THIS YEAR WOULD BE NICE
(kidding, lovelove (not really -stares daggers (ok but since you've been on my side, -pats pal)))
(too many parenthesises.)

despite endless caterwauling..
yes sa is lovable..regardless of location @Malan/ @PP
each had their very own memorable episodes (or climbing gates and SPORTYDAZE!)


-

what they said spawned this trail of thought and i'm beginning to think i was wrong about you.

._.

beware! the saint patriotism has taken over us by storm. do not catch the bug! being tagged would result in insane desire to reach school ON TIME to sing the school song for the last time (nevermind the fact we've never so much as hummed the song, much less know the lyrics), buy school foolscap paper, gorge school food and fly kite around the track.

WHO KNEW.

days ago we had HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BELLETANLIPING :D



sanity at 8teen indeed, eating flowers




Dinah's cam has bore this animosity against us since we were innocent Secondary 3 St. Nicholas Girls..


yesterday was Happy Children's Day
today is Hello One Month to A Level's Omg.

gentle reminder to how we're no longer kids..





& littlemisssunshine deserves a hundred and one popcornsss!
life is a fucking beauty contest.
life is also (: phonecalls, 5 girls i can't live without, forum and smu.

-

YOU GOT IT WRONG ALL ALONG
stopppp this atrocity!!

life is never fair is it..

dear Santa
i promise to be really good, sitting still and waiting.
please send me all my xxxxx s cascading down the chimney this december..
(and make them last.)

i'm falling in you're falling out

so nette and i bought TWO bags each for 90bucks! right?
just a lil harmless self deceit.


take me away

had always secretly harnessed longings to be packed into a bag and hide away in times of need.. just to feel safe for a while..
yea i know i'm a tad weird.

-

on replay; Displaced, Azure Ray.

-

yay, Meredith moved on
like, finally!

whitewashed.

finally caught up with my sleepppp
eyebags were ghastly and weighing down my sight and the world along with it
ohkay hyperbole.

-

weds @ phuture..
initial boredom
to fab drinks + fab music = outofstate highness = dancing like a 'filmsy' nut.
to supreme sleepiness after all that euphoria and psychedupstate and falling all over the place (secretly~~ falling apart -smashing pumpkins HAHA)
shouldve gone to find sammiekinss/ mambo for more sanity.

butttt
THANKS NETTEY PALSXZz AND PEARLLL..
reallyreally.
HUIYI DON'T TALK TO ME (kidding. pls brush up braiding skills <3 you nonetheless)



-

shoppingg w stephcheong's DA BOMB!
(: (say goodbye to gullible days)

dadeedoo+dinah : yess so jln kayu-ing or??

AND
EXCITING EIGHTEEN REE Y
im sorry about last night.. ._.
(yes i insist your fave colour is still purple)

-

sch's a blurr.
f-tupstate cannot be contained anymore
i hate my grades and myself
it's just hopeless pointless meaningless empty void
but still,
hit the books, wendy.
nomoretears johnson&johnson, yz?

Her favorite flower is daffodils

(newly won over Tim Burton fan)
i loved Big Fish for its inversions

factual and imaginative (there's truth in imagination..so there!)
tickling and heartwarming (yes, teary..)
beautiful and ugly
..


all spinning an entire web of morals unfolding bit by bit
i think its worth every single one of its nominations.. and more!
(:

or maybe its just really my kind of story.

p.s Josephine (played by Jessica Lange) and Sandra (Alison Lohman) are the luckiest girls in the world..

Josephine: You never told me how your parents met.
Will Bloom: They met at Auburn.
Josephine: But what about the details? How they fell in love. The cirus, the war - you never told me any of that.
Will Bloom: That's because most of it never happened.
Josephine: But it's romantic.
Will Bloom: Mmm...
Josephine: Mmm, what?
Will Bloom: Well, I know better than to argue romance with a French woman.

Senior Ed Bloom: You are in for a surprise.
Will Bloom: Am I?
Senior Ed Bloom: Havin' a kid changes everything. There's burping, the midnight feeding, and the changing.
Will Bloom: You do any of that?
Senior Ed Bloom: No But I hear it's terrible. Then you spend years trying to corrupt and mislead this child, fill his head with nonsense, and still it turns out perfectly fine.
Will Bloom: You think I'm up for it?
Senior Ed Bloom: You learned from the best.

Will Bloom: We have to take Glenville to avoid the church traffic because the damn church people drive too slow.

Josephine: I'd like to take your picture.
Senior Ed Bloom: Oh, you don't need a picture. Just look up "handsome" in the dictionary.

Young Ed Bloom: Has it ever occurred to you that maybe you're not too big? That maybe this place is just too small?

Young Ed Bloom: There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than other fish. They're just touched by something extra.

Young Ed Bloom: There's a time when a man needs to fight and a time when he needs to accept that his destiny's lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I've always been a fool.

Young Ed Bloom: It was that night I discovered that most things you consider evil or wicked are simply lonely, and lacking in the social niceties.

Sandra Bloom: You don't even know me.
Young Ed Bloom: I have the rest of my life to find out.

Ed Bloom (Age 10): I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.



righto..enough quotes to flood the post. am off. hope tonight will be fun!

-


the epitome of change..
never anymore.

hormones
(otherwise pronounced as her-er-mo)




rainy dayss..
try not ter get pensive with uncoorperative mood yes

visits to town, bugis, haji, plaza sing, minds cafe,
off to woodlands and secretsxzs supplies (surprise) tmrw
plusplus a hopeful squeeze of zouk/mos

Ying the company
(and shopping bags of goodiess!)

oh books, foe-of-the-mo, long-forgotten!





arent these the cutestt..
my kind of eye candy (:

thumberlina says










pretty please..

but stars are blind.

(yes i secretly think her addictive debut track is nice.)

daily activities = pretence of me ceasing to exist as an a-level student
WHAT AM I DOING!!

but distressed state aside,
omg discoveries and reuinions with pals = (:
moreee please!
impending need to fulfill insatiable desire to watch movies (p square (pretty please haha) &prada soon! click+the breakup were good..but archetypal of their genre..) and ogle at cute stuff.
and the tv is beckoning me to every 'primetime' slot possible whenever im home. (jss! :)
+i really need to check out what's that boardgaming thing all about..stop calling me swak, stephcheong!

i might as well wave goodbye (-sings steadman) to university.

-

But here she is, all mine, trying her best to give me all that she can. How could I ever hurt her?
But I didnt' understand then. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Y murakami
(thanks c &sam for recommendation)

yes i'm reading novels when my eyes should really be glued to statistics and economics and sexual innuendos in Chaucer.

-

random.

fireworks.




rapture.






sigh. i really miss my tooth :'c
what a world of difference that lil hole makes. (and this is the cue for us to lapse into the theme of significance, physical presence vs void, tangible vs intangible ok monologue stop being lit psycho stream of consciousness writing?)


WHY? this is really random. dug it up from a long time ago. shocks, nette?


haha wting dont scream. we need to take better shots at shanghai06/07!! :D


another randomnity, missed! seeyou later dsf!

bye all
i need make myself a more productive being.


(haha dinah!)

the bold and the ugly.

(haven't done this in a long time so please pardon me, should any stray, lost birds fly this way by accident)

this is the last time.
that i will say these words
i remember the first time

-

are we bein selfish by wishin things the way we want them to be such that
if everyth worked out the way we wanted
and the people we wanted to stay with us stayed,
they would be deprived of the happier larks they are right now?
to tug at someones arm (many peoples arms then) and say 'im sorry i now kno how i've screwed it up' and 'pretty please stay and remember the way things were..
should end.

i guess we could all try to find our own happiness then.
till another time -

i used to think you could be my Unsuperficial
till secrets ate it all up and all that was left was the acrid taste of what insanely feels like betrayal (bcos it shouldnt be so) compounded in marshmellows..if only you knew but does it matter if it wasnt sustainable from the very first bite

i should learn to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve,
but then i would be trying to read myself like how im trying to read all of them (/us)


nothing lasts,
stop the naivety if i could.

there's truth in imagination..

..dreamyy.

((i wish.)

curtailment like a slap across the cheek


good night, sleep light, stranger/s.

night of secret behaviour..
secretly hurt.

On Hiatus!

(moving on to new beginning of wendy wonderland :)




\ 'Sleep away the years. Sleep away the pain. Wake up tomorrow, a girl again.'

radiohead; creep

so my lids started fluttering me awake at the odd hour of 6plus a-freaking.-m. which explains my blogging at the unearthly hour of 8.58 a-freaking.-m.

this really defies my normal human proclivity
(which is to instinctively shut my eyes and if required, pretend to be asleep for the next few hours or so when im actually just lying motionless in bed with a wandering mind (appearance vs. reality) so that my dad won't disturb me to go breakfast with him (evil, i know but the awkward talk about school and things he really has no idea about is unbearable) and i can revel in some extent of self-comfort that i am no freak and can sleep for a reasonable amount of hours after watching Argentina vs. Germany like a normal person would have (this is a very long parenthesis so please just skip this pointless entry should you be one of the rare lost sheep to stumble upon my blog which i suppose only holds rare viewership..which is something i particularly like)) and i tribute this all to talk about post A's with new shopping partner yestderday. got me really hyped up, all that sandcastles built in the air..haha.
and to add stones to this weighing discovery of myself to take in, i made my own breakfast!
(though i encountered some minor setbacks along the way, such as the obstinate lettuce which refused to hold my egg whites-and-yolk bits so i had to resort to stuffing the egg bits in my mouth then hurriedly take a bite of the wholemeal bread sandwiched with some lettuce. and as a result made a mess at the sink but thank god the black granite is shiny and dark enough to offset the contrasting shades of the egg bits so i could clean it up - it's spick and span now - such that my mom would not be in the know of the depressing failure she has for a daughter. oh and i think it was a tiny fragment of eggshell i swallowed. but that's about it.)

so anyway i went to my bookshelf and found I Capture the Castle - i'm pretty sure i borrowed it from some friend of mine but it had completely slipped my mind who what when how did i borrow it so anyway charm says its remarkable and she watched the movie four times and it was so good i should catch it too despite it being screened at 2.15a-freaking.m. on hbo last week. actually this is my third attempt to read it (i was immensely bored by it the previous times) and very strangely, it seems to be performing up to expectations thus far. worthy of recommendations indeed.

anyways. had a long entire weekend of shopping and gluttony activities planned out. yesterday's find with huiyi was fabfabfab. major guilt-tripping ahead. i need to morph into major nerd as soon as the clock chimes 12a-freaking.-m. to announce the dawn of Tuesday.
ohmy i haven't blogged such a long &random entry for some time.




i do realise i contain some profound ability to shock even myself sometimes.

alright. am off to leave my poddie to charge for the day and head back to the book or watch Pride and Prejudice before heading to zhong guo town later in the day. tada.


- 'contemplation is the only luxury that costs nothing.'

p.s miss the bestfriend major :c

she said, i think i'm going Boston
i think i'll start it over.



say hello to post bt2.

dinah, belle, me and da. and da &i, while the other 2 were busy with the roses..hahaha. the last pic is our implementation of..THREE LEAF CLOVERS! ._.

-


i wish people would stop telling me what i should be
i getting really confused.



and sometimes i wish you would still be here as my friend. just to be here for the whites the blacks and the in-between greys like you promised you would.





in dire need to watch mindless good chickflick (how can chickflick be good, you ask? read Twelfth Night and watch She's the Man).. yeayea i knw i wrote about high culture vs mass culture in my essay. and how the latter is debasing but .. we can all unearth this part of us.
okay whatever. rambling to myself at night.

happy birthday you June babies (ocular proof to my very flat and empty wallet)


too funny. acting strong. check out how apt the words on his shirt read. him and the girls present. you can just tell who skipped school.


angry me and scared c (resembling very much like a baby! hehe)


how much longer can a girl's arms get?!
are you tapping your feet to I'm Yours yet? qing huai kaui kuai. HAHA.


so HAPPY 18TH june babies!
(reiteration: y'all burnt holes in my wallet)

¬ to forget D. er gd luck for Chem paper that day you poor boy.


ohkay byebye
i need to go off and freak out about The BT2 & The return to school.

Three Names You Go By:
wendy. wend. dydytoe

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
china. msia. spore.

Three Things That Scare You:
myself. vehement (or even the slight bit of) arguments. poor grades.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
wallet (with money &ezlink). v3i. poddie.

Three Things You're Wearing Now:
err nightdress. specs. ear studs?

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists at the moment:
motion city soundtrack. the lost prophets. the veronicas.

Three of Your Favorite Songs at the moment:
last train home. i could get used to this. when it all falls apart.

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than love):
security. trust. warm fuzziness.

Two Truths and a Lie:
i have 4 blue blacks and i don't know where from. my nails are the only part of me that i really like. i will tell my mom about it one day.

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You:
what appealed might not appeal anymore, what did not appeal might appeal..but err ohkay..randomly.. hair. nose. face shape.

Three of your Favourite Hobbies:
doing constructive work (satisfaction differs everyday). eating. FRIENDS.

Three Things You want really badly right now:
ACE MY A'S. HAPPINESS. December (which holds a lot of things actually..tings' return..my birthday..internship pls..a good job with satisfying pay..many mambo nights..EOY trip with friends!! (&most imptly feeling fine with my A's performance so i can enjoy myself)).

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation:
LA (tings!). Shanghai (shopping!). any nice beachy resorty place (so we can walk and lie around in bikinis all day and get fab tan, Dada!).

Three things you want to do before you die:
to love and be loved (friends families blahblah). travel. job fulfillments.

fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink


/ keren ann; not going anywhere

i take buses and trains in the wrong directions and wind up back to a square one
i forget my wallet and prime belongings and end up dashing to and fro
i study midway and start wondering and fretting if i should be doing something more constructive
i habitually organise stuff such as planning out my days but allow them to be disrupted should anyone need to
i cut my hair and immediately wish they'd grow and conjure images of myself in another hairstyle
i enjoy silences coupled with physical companion but i worry all the time about the ennui the other party might be faced with
i kinda get lost doing the simplest things everyday

such as the meaning of this utterly random entry



days have been fine;
meeting up with people and struggling but failing to study
lazy to recount my days..

btw happy 18th c (:
hope last night was good for you! -winks.




if we keep swimming maybe this will never die.

cross out my eyes

Zouk was funnnnn :D
though the beginning was so stoned i had half a mind to wave down a cab, hop it and snuggle under my sheets at home buttttt staying wasn't so bad!
omg hy and nette, whenever i have flashbacks of us i want to LAUGH pls
what were we doing?!?!?!
as a matter of fact i'm laughing to myself now
._.
hilarious.
anyway c, hy, nette, me and yz had dinner at this .. Chinese restaurant @ Zion Rd with yummy side dishes (forgot its name..hy pls read it out again in your Chinese accent)

Happy belated birthday NewFound HWEEEEEYI
and an early one to you GF C!


studying with Ree in her room at my little squishy seat (with her baba's picture staring at me nonetheless ._.) looking like a PRIMARY FOUR kid, THANKS, is therapeutic. albeit the tv watching, chitchatting we had moments of silence (with strangely comforting scraping sounds of my pen, according to her) dedicated to STUDY though not a lot, cos we had to leave.
so anyway SABRINA WEE doubt you'd read this BUT if you do, meet up next week ohkay! location = Ree's again cos..yes.


i see vast whiteness in the sky and slanting raindrops hitting my windows..
why is it raining AGAINN.
sorry dinah and da in advance..gonna be late
not my fault!
hahah
we're watching She's The Man YAY!
Steph and everyone else have been singing praises about it endlessly
who else to watch it with but fellow 3/4Charity Twelfth Night study counterparts?
haha. TINGS youre immensely missed.
hope you're having a blast in Shanghai - yes i know she can't blogspot there but anyhoo i thought of you (: rmb how we discussed our lit texts with such genuine interest..now i look at Othello and want to puke. grr.


rawr. not studying enough.
the palpable air of failure is getting stronger each day and yet i revel in this futility!
bad, very bad.


anyway was watching Riding In Cars With Boys (hope i got it right) yesterday
was bawling my eyes out like a retard
4 popcorns!

so amidst all the exuberance
know that everything in life is such a bloody facade.

lifehouse; all in all
i love Motion City Soundtrack!

daytime tv says:
GOODNIGHTS GF!

daytime tv says:
HAHA YES IL ZHAO GU YOUUUU

daytime tv says:
I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU


:D
HAHAHAH
awww.
made me smile!

cut my fringe,
i look like a baby.
URGH.
what's new. hate fringecuts.

i could get used to this.

floodin back as the song plays and the grays color the screen.

-


studying with the girls @ TeaParty days back


nette c me hy
@ random roadside attempting to take looming car lights behind us BUT the traffic light was blooming red ._.


hy c nette and me performing vigourous neck exercise ._.
@ island creamery.

just realised i take most photos with these girls!
cos only they happen to take photos, haha.



'HIT this! I need the money.'
'The horn is broken. Watch the finger.'
hahah car bumper stickers.


caught dad's idiosyncracies while stayin in on this rare Saturday night
getting quite amusing..
plus the old man (sometimes you can only doubt his age..he looks and behaves like a boy. what is with males around me..) caught the World Cup Fever.. literally..
tagged by the bug after stayin up a night for the very first match,
resulting in mom reveling in endless mockery
hahah.


attempting to have a proper conversation with Huang Weiting is as hard as two girls surviving on S$4.80 @ majumall (StephCheong we must rmb to bring money tmrw!)..but i digress
MISS YOU ANYHOO! (: cant wait for you to be back!!


sky has been awfully teary recently..
hopefully tear ducts will be unfluffy tomorrow,
we're heading for a dip in the pool and hopin for rays.

SIGH.
much to study.
been nothing short of a slothful slug..

who knew

somebody tutor me Money for Econs please.
i can't pay cos i'm really confused with Money.

ohkay not funny.
i love OK Go.
urgh.
study turmoils.

/stereophonics; dakota
/OK Go; oh lately it's been so quiet

but today i'm fine without you

there goes my 3 days of
mad rush at 830 in the morning
endless smiling (i've never smiled so much in my life. but it wasn't ache inducing, surprisingly)
act-kiddy voices and conversations ("you want to mum mum?? aiyo. naughty girl! what's your favourite colour? wow! you have a pet rabbit? what's its name?" just to list a few off the top of my head)
running around and bending down constantly
free YUMMY food (sugar cupcakes DIY popiahs chocolate marshmellows etc)
wiping of snot, washing of hands a million times a day (at least i didn't have to pee a boy HAHAH -looks at c)
& little Claudia running between and hugging my legs HEE. (ought to upload a picture of her, the cutest darling with the longestestest lashes!)

we must do this more!
much more fulfilling and :D than randomly standing around town asking for donations (or rather, just going to Darrenn's house to watch Spiderman)

communicating with people of different ages differ vastly from people around my own age..

with kids you're instinctively willing to give and give (do i sound like Silas Marner yet) and you don't expect anything back - a simple smile or nod makes your day THAT much brighter.
with adults they don't judge you as extensively and there is little awkwardness. silly auntie-taitais are quite funny. haha.
everybody just hangs loose and be themselves.
what a total 360deg turn from a scene in the cafeteria.

shall scoot off for tuition soon..and more study seshs to come over the weekend
- back to the reality of a 17 year old about to face the harshness of the dreaded A levels..
but on the flipside, there's sunday tv on starworld to look forward to..haha.


all the small things.

stopppp.
oo. i ssim eht semit ew dah, hguoht i t'ndluow timda ti, dna i rednow fi ouy od oot.

o1. i finally understand Money (i think)

o2. on the other hand, lost touch with Math. so much for years of attempting to be his (i insist - Math sounds .. chauvanistic) best friend. OR i could be talking about something else.

o3. i love family of crystal jade (think CJC (haha), congee, xlb, mango pudding, shui jiao, la mian blah)

o4. kids are a bundle of joy - if you have that bundle of patience and attention span (omitence of love is due to fact that i hardly believe it is enough for anything anymore.) NOT THAT i don't enjoy volunteering.

o5. i can hear my dad watching soccer. yay cable just got installed! (slow, i know.)

o6. 'pirated singers' have good vocals. poor things.

o7. you scare me - a perfect epitome of radical changes within minimal time span.

o8. motorola can actually be more lovable that nokia.

o9. i love taking the bus at night. sometimes i look at the rows of people's heads before me and wonder what bubbles from their thought bubbles. i hope i don't sound psychotic haha.

1o. NEVER attend another underage party EVER.

p.s slow, but THANKYOU dinah and belle for very sweet SMILE (: chocolate banana icecream and UNemo talk. very Friendly Friends. ooh pun-ified. hahah.
& stayoverability (HAH! and you think it cant get any longer) + flying chicken oil. haha.

a space between the boyfriend

say Hello Holidays
and to the delighted and proud owner
of polished teeth
and the new motorola v3i maroon !

it's a new beginning
of new Ys, i just know it.


but if i don't come back
then i won't look behind me.



totally taking a self-imposed and undeserved lil break
before i get down to some very hopeful-to-be-materialised serious studying!

and to all those who were there,
you know who you are; punching away faithfully at your mobiles/ trying to make me laugh/ getting me to talk about it/ volunteering your various services
thanks (((((:
you've all been such angels.


Before you met me I was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince
And made myself a queen
And before you knew me I'd traveled 'round the world
And I slept in castles
And fell in love
Because I was taught to dream

I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture Tinker Bell
And they were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But I could always tell

Cause I believed in fairy tales
And dreamer's dreams
Like bedsheet sails
And I believed in Peter Pan
And miracles, anything I can to get by
And fireflies

Now before I grew up I saw you on a cloud
And I could bless myself in your name
And pat you on your wings
And before I grew up I heard you whisper so loud
Well life is hard and so is love
Child, believe in all these things



steph &i : WE Y THE OC SEASON THREE!

in retrospect.

about regrets -
i've never been one to look back and think : damn, i should've done this instead of that and blah,
but this year has been one that holds much pain for all those spilt milk.

i wish that all seventeen years of my life
i haven't given up all that i was passionate for and better in,
that i had my priorities right,
that i was a better friend, daughter, student, lover, companion,
that i was better to myself.

and i know how pathetic it seems to be sitting around and get all pensive
which is why it gives me much (: to say that i promise myself that would the last thing i will allow myself to do

because all the wrongs that i did to myself,
i owe myself this much
to get things back on track again

it'll take so much
and it'll be such a slow process
and i know i will fall and feel like giving up
but hope is an instinctive impetus inside all of us living here

may we all not lose it.





or maybe we will realise we won't need this anymore -